Today I am feeling pretty good yesterday I got a lot of exercise and when I weighed myself this morning(Saturday) I was 2 pounds down from Thursday! I got a BodyBugg and it is really helpful it really helps to keep me motivated and on track ! I check it constantly to see if I am at a calorie deficit, see where my steps are and to just check and see how my day has been going. I didn't blog for a couple of days so I will catch us all up to speed ...
This past Wednesday was a hard day for me... I was just not feeling 100% and I was really stressed, my food journal definitely showed that. I came home from school early and had a lot to do ! My mom wanted me to come and help her with some paint colors so I came home made lunch (a Beef fajita wrap) and then headed over to her house, before I left I also had a quick scoop of peanut butter(not sure why). I was really tired so I was going to try and catch a quick nap before I went over there so I could be super productive when I got home. I stayed there for about 3 hours and may have accidentally downed a couple Dark Chocolate Dove pieces and some almonds while I was there too. When I got home I had a full plan of attack but was still so tired! I sat down at my computer and started to try to get to work but I found myself getting up to get a snack quite often...maybe I was stalling? When all was said and done I had eaten way more than I should have and then was feeling really defeated. Right before I went to bed I made a quick half peanut better sandwich, I reasoned with myself that I already blew so whats a little more.
When I woke up on Thursday with a "food hangover" I felt gross I had a stomach ache and I felt nauseated. I took a couple of Pepto tablets and told myself it would pass. My trainer was coming over around 10 so it better pass or I was for sure going to puke during our workout! I was feeling better, feeling a lot of anxiety before my workout. I was anxious about the workout and also anxious about the HUGE exam that was soon to come that evening. I made myself a very healthy breakfast or egg beaters, spinach, toast and Activia yogurt hoping that would also help to settle my tummy. I did my workout but found myself really struggling to get through it for some reason it was really painful this week. I though it was supposed to get easier ?!? Ugh! I hate this stage of dieting where everything is pretty new, I'm waaaaay out of shape and struggling to "get it together." After my workout Kristi and I sat down and "talked food" I showed her my food journal and she was like whoa.... OK we need to sort this out. I was consuming way more calories than I needed to. My fat grams were waaaay high and my sodium intake was out of this world ! I confessed all my sins, it's almost like talking to a therapist really and laid it all out there. It feels really good to talk about things, I feel like it helps keep me focused. Se also had some words of wisdom for me this week. She showed me a video of a 70 year old woman who can hold a plank for over half an hour! She also said, " Let's work hard so you never have to go through this again!" Amen sister I have done everything when it comes to dieting and exercise and I need to get it together and get it right this time!!! She had me write down my motivator, my obstacles and set some goals. I better remember that I gave her those because I have a feeling I am going to see those again in a few weeks. Our session was really good this week. I just needed to talk and be really honest with her so she can try to help me the best that she can. After Kristi left I felt rejuvenated. I packed a lunch and headed to school to study my butt of for my Phys test- and I DIDN'T STRESS eat at all ! :)
Friday was also a really good day. It was the fist day that I had eaten out since I started this project a couple of weeks ago. I had a "fish fry" with baked fish and only ate 2 spoonfuls of potato salad and 2 spoonfuls of coleslaw and half my bun. Normally I would have polished that whole thing off no problem! Also I got a Diet Pepsi instead of a beer and I was fine with that ! :) Eating out is hard its really tempting and its hard to know exactly what is in your food. Yikes scary ! I went for a good dog walk before we went to dinner and then took my pup to the dog park after to make sure that I got at least my 10,000 steps in! I actually ended up with significantly more than that! Thanks BodyBugg I wouldn't have gone for a walk if I didn't see that! I came home to an empty house and was feeling kind of hmmm... lonely I guess I paced around the kitchen and kept battling with myself to stay away from the food !!! I was kind of hungry but kind of not ... Yikes this is hard. I grabbed some Sugar Free Jello, sat down and watched some TV. That still didn't do it so I grabbed another sugar free jello.... hmm
So now it's Saturday I woke up early because Tom's family is coming to help with some things at the house and I told my Grandma I would take her out to breakfast and for some shopping. Tommy wanted me to go get some donuts for everyone working at the house. DONUTS ?!? Really ?!? So I did and I did NOT sample! When I went to breakfast I looked for something that would be reasonable. First I decided maybe the Fresh Fruit Plate served with an egg and a piece of toast perfect! That seems pretty harmless but when the waitress came she said that the fruit plate is not in season yet. So I got the veggie and cheese omelet with some wheat toast. That can't be too bad right? It came with 2 pieces of toast, I only ate one I should have asked for dry toast, it came buttered. I did a lot of walking shopping, we went to the mall and Target and all over the place. I stopped at Subway to grab some sandwiches for the guys working at the house. When I got home no one was here, good thing I ordered the sandwiches with no dressing - I ate a 6" Turkey sub with no mayo and no mustard. While I was eating the sandwich I uploaded by BodyBugg stuff to see how much damage I had done- not bad. Tonight we are supposed to go out to diner at Buffalo Wild Wings I am debating my plan of attack. I looked up nutrition facts online and if something is low fat its way high sodium... hmm.... I'll keep looking. I may just make a Whole Body Green shake and have a couple beers and some water at dinner ...
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